My mind is having a field day with me today. I keep swinging between feeling overly motivated I’m going to talk a mile a minuet, and take care of everything on my to do list…to so overwhelmed with anxiety I don’t know whats going on anymore.
I’ve already erased and re-written this post many times today. Thankfully as I write I start to realize this BRILLIANT idea I HAD to write about is really just ramblings of my over thinking/working mind before I posted any of that silliness. I’m finding my ability to filter these things weakening.
I’m getting moodier. Everything pisses me off now. For no reason. *sigh* Makes being around people hard. Honestly I’ve not left the house in days. I KNOW I need to, but I can’t take other people. Monday brings my next appointment which I atleast have to walk to, good thing, I need it.
I know I need to write some of these things down for my appointment on Monday or I will never remember to talk about it with my therapist. I’ve also been all but out of my Valium. That DOES NOT HELP. I took a half of a 5mg awhile ago. I realized it might be one of those times I was saving it for. I gotta stop this feeling of spinning out of control.
Life of the Bipolar Mind 
I vacillate also between going a million miles and hour and laying in a stupor. I joke that I have 2 speeds: on or off.